Showing posts with label Pregnancy. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Pregnancy. Show all posts

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Constant Cravings


After only a few weeks of pregnancy, I was struck by nausea. Constant nausea. There was no "morning sickness" just an all day lingering 'blah'. I didn't vomit very much, though most days I wished I would, so that maybe I might feel a little better. Eating seemed to help the nausea, especially carbs. Shakes (from Swensons were the best) would often soothe my upset stomach, though they most likely contributed to my stretch marks. I don't remember any food aversions I had, though patients often tell me theirs and they are very common at this point in pregnancy.

My two main cravings throughout my pregnancy were apples and Dr. Pepper. I would eat at least two sometimes up to five apples a day. It was during pregnancy that I discovered honeycrisp apples which are perhaps the most delightful of all apples. I would be almost giddy with anticipation as I pulled a fresh honeycrisp out of the fridge and took a huge bite. The sweet crispiness would hit my tongue, while the juices ran down my chin. Then I would be faced with a conundrum: do I take another bite first or do I pause to wipe off the juices? Usually the next bite won the contest, as I attacked the apple much like lions attack antelopes on the Discovery channel.

My rare treat was Dr.Pepper, BUT it had to be in a can and REALLY cold. The best were Dr Peppers that had been in a cooler with the ice half melted so that they were floating in the freezing water. SO cold that it would give a slight chill as it ran down my throat helping, if only for a moment, for me to forget about my heart burn and focus on the sweet, fizzy, cold, wonderfulness that is Dr. Pepper in a can.

What do these crazy cravings mean? Despite being a common symptom of pregnancy there is not a lot of data on pregnancy craving. The first trimester is a pivotal point in pregnancy, where all the tiny organs are forming. This is a key time to avoid chemical/ foods that might cause harm to the baby, leading to malformations. It's thought that this is why God made that first trimester to have the aversions and nausea, to avoid foods and chemical that might be harmful. Its also important to take your prenatal vitamin daily, as the folic acid gives the spine its building blocks to help it form properly, preventing spina bifida. Carbs, which are a common craving, are one of the easiest foods to digest, full of energy, safe for the baby and can help ease the nausea.

The key with first trimester eating, especially if you are fighting nausea, is to eat small meals through out the day. The baby doesn't need a large amount of calories at this point, so you don't need to eat an increased amount of food, but do try to eat small amount of heathly carbs and protein throughout the day: Whole grain bagels, whole grain pasta, applesauce, bananas, rice, toast ect.

If you feel you are eating too much, gaining too much weight or constantly hungry then focus on trying to slow down the speed of your eating: spend 20 minutes eating a bagel.

What if I'm having weird cravings? Some people will crave things that aren't food, such as dirt, laundry soap, baby powder, ice or paint. This can be a sign of anemia or a vitamin deficiency. If you find that you are eating or craving non-food items please tell your doctor immediately.

Will my baby like the things I crave during pregnancy? I often get asked this question, but medically we don't know. In my own experience my son does LOVE apples, one the few foods he likes (that's a whole OTHER post!).

If you have healthy cravings, like fruits and vegetables, then go with it! If you have non-healthy cravings (IE, REALLY cold Dr Pepper in a can) then give in to those once or twice a week, not once or twice a day! If you have non-food craving notify your doctor.

Friday, December 17, 2010

Symptoms: Hunger w/ Cravings and Aversions

I am 10 weeks along in my pregnancy and all of a sudden I am hungry ALL THE TIME! Dr. Rupe talks about this symptom in the book. Hunger, with cravings and aversions.

I'm hungry all the time but not much sounds good to me. I am blessed in that I don't suffer from extreme nausea or vomiting during my first trimester. Just a touch of queasiness from time to time. But I have lots of food aversions and honestly, they seem to come and go. One minute chicken sounds good, the next anything related to my feathered friends makes me want to puke. It makes it very challenging to eat healthy during these early stages of pregnancy.

My hope is that after I share my pregnant point of view on this symptom, Dr. Rupe will chime in with another entry that gives the facts and some good, doctorly advice on how to handle this early pregnancy dilemma.

Preparation is perhaps the most important action you can take when trying to eat healthy in your first trimester (and throughout your entire pregnancy for that matter). Since I know that chicken is hit or miss for me right now, I have to be ready with other options. What does sound good? Make a list of foods you have not been averse to and make sure you keep them around. Any kind of meat is tough for most women I talk to in their first trimester. What other forms of protein can you stomach at this stage?

I don't hear much that fruits and vegetables bother women in pregnancy so focusing on those things is a good idea. I've eaten a lot of salads (the tangy vinegar helps the queasiness) along with citrus fruits (sour is great for nausea). When all else fails look to whole grains. Toast and whole wheat pasta are mild and will give you the carbs you need for energy. Try to find some form of protein to add to it though. Cheese is a good idea. Lastly, make sure you drink lots of water to keep you from dehydrating. Water is also just a great cleansing agent. It almost resets my system to drink a tall glass of cold water. Chicken might sound yucky but after downing 8 oz of agua, it might not be so bad.

We'd love to hear your pregnancy menu secrets. What worked for you?

Thursday, November 25, 2010

A Feast of Thanksgiving

Enter into his gates with thanksgiving, and into his courts with praise: be thankful unto him, and bless his name. Psalm 100:4

Dr. Rupe and I would like to wish all of you a very Happy Thanksgiving! We hope you will be spending the day with your loved ones; focusing on the many blessings in your lives. We have so much to be thankful for. Even in the midst of trials, there are many blessings we can count.

With this post I'd like to offer a feast of thanksgiving and I hope you'll share with us what you are most thankful for as well.

This year I am thankful for:
1. Jesus, who has allowed me to be real with him this year. In doing so I feel so much closer to him and I am so grateful for his unconditional love.
2. My husband, who is the most servant-hearted man I know.
3. My daughter, Hope, whose life is a daily reminder to me that I don't have to be afraid as I walk this new journey as a mommy-to-be.
4. My new baby, the life that God has allowed us to conceive in his timing and through his plan. I am thankful for the strong heartbeat that we were able to see this week.
5. My family, who is has been incredibly supportive this year.
6. My friends, some who have moved away and some who remain close. Location does not determine closeness. I am so blessed by the women in my life.
7. Provision, which will look different in the months to come but he's always provided, why would he stop now?

I am reminded today with all of the thoughts and stresses vying for our attention, that we have to focus our minds on the positive things in our lives. So what are you thankful for? And what are you believing for that you would take a step of faith and thank him for in advance?

May your heart overflow with peace and gratitude this Thanksgiving.
Love,

Monday, November 15, 2010

Sick and Pregnant!

So I have a cold. It stinks. My throat is raw and my nose is full of snot. It's hard enough being sick but being sick when you are pregnant is miserable. What I wouldn't do for some NyQuil right now!

My husband and I were out and about yesterday when I felt this cold coming on and unfortunately, I could not for the life of me remember what medications I could take (despite having read this manuscript 50,000 times). The very uninterested Publix pharmacist did not help although he did remind me I could take Sudafed (which, by the way, I had to sign for). I was not near my own Publix otherwise I would have received a warm welcome, lots of helpful information and a huge congratulations that I am expecting. (Not all Publix stores were created equal).

And now, here I am at home. In front of my computer where I could check my handy, dandy Pregnancy Companion manuscript (don't you wish you had the book already?!) and here's what it says:

Colds and upper respiratory illnesses are also quite annoying. Acetaminophen (Tylenol), guaifenesin (Robitussin), and phenylephrine (Sudafed) are generally safe to take during pregnancy. Make sure to avoid products that contain ibuprofen (Motrin or Advil) or aspirin. If you begin to cough up chunky junk (yes, that’s a medical term) or have a fever, you should see your doctor. It is highly recommended that you get the flu shot while you are pregnant. If you do get influenza with body aches, chills, and fevers, you should be started on antiviral drugs quickly. Some OB offices treat their sick pregnant patients in the office; others will have you see your family doctor. Check with your doctor on office policy.

So there you have it. No, I cannot take NyQuil or the myriad other drugs I would normally use to knock myself out, but I can do this:

- Drink lots of water
- Drink decaf tea to soothe my throat (Decaf PG Tips is my favorite)
- Rest
- Take Sudafed and Tylenol
- Sleep with an extra pillow to keep my head elevated
- Sleep with the window cracked for extra air circulation and thus less stuffiness (this is my husband's trick), of course this requires you raise the heat
- Make an appointment to have my flu shot because let's face it, I don't want to feel this yucky again!

Got any pregnancy sickness tips? Leave a comment, we'd love to hear them!


P.S. I LOVE being pregnant and writing this blog. Now I will have real time, real life pregnancy topics to discuss first hand. And believe me, I should have plenty. I experienced about every, silly, little thing you could experience when I was pregnant with Hope!

Friday, November 12, 2010

Speaking of Miracles. . .

I hope you all were encouraged by Dr. Rupe's amazing adoption story. I lived through it with her yet I still get chills every time we talk about it. What an amazing reminder that sometimes the Lord allows us to wait for things so that he will get the most glory when it finally comes about the way he chooses. What a miracle story!

Speaking of miracles. . .Remember how I was believing that I would conceive this month even though, medically it was a long shot? The main reason I felt the grace to believe for such a thing was because of the faith of a friend. A couple of weeks ago I met Heather (sorry, I just can't call her Dr. Rupe when talking so personally about our friendship) and our friend Donna for dinner. It was right after the appointment I wrote about where my eggs were on the wrong side (remember I only have one tube after my ectopic pregnancy) and I was asked to pay out the wazooo for fertility treatments that didn't work. I was at a low point on my journey and I truly felt like I wanted to give up. I shared the update with Donna and Heather. Both were very sweet and encouraging but it was Heather's response that changed everything. Here she was. . .not only my friend but my doctor as well and she said, "That's no big deal. Your tubes can flop around. I really feel like this is THE month." Did my OB really just tell me that maybe I could conceive against all odds? It was like a shot in the arm. . .both the reassurance of the slight medical possibility and my sweet friend believing when I didn't think I could believe any longer.

I left that dinner feeling so hopeful. More hopeful than I had been when the eggs where on the right side. So I began to pray and ask the Lord for the near impossible (but not completely impossible according to my doc). I started to realize that if he did allow me conceive against the odds like this, it would surely bring more glory to him. Having a story like that would make all the waiting and the pain worth it.

So this is it. . .the post I've been waiting all year to write. I am pregnant!! Although we remain guarded having been through all we've been through in the past, our main hurdle has been cleared: that little bugger safely made it to my uterus (as was confirmed on an early ultrasound yesterday). I'm only 5 weeks along and perhaps I'm crazy to be sharing this news so soon but I feel like you all have walked faithfully with me through this journey so I'm committed to share all of it with you. I appreciate your prayers as we wait in hope for the next milestones: hearing a heartbeat in a week or so and getting through the first trimester. We are guarded yet we believe that he will be faithful to continue this miracle.

So once again I am reminded that sometimes he asks us to wait for things so he can bring them about his way. I am truly honored that he would use me and my story to bring glory to himself.

May you see his glory in your own life this season.
Love,

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Really Cool Maternity Clothes


For all of you that are currently with child. . .

One of our community members shared with me a great site to buy unique and trendy maternity clothes. Thanks Lani for the tip!

Visit Top Shop now for great summer pieces.

Here's to looking awesome even with a protruding belly. . .

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Real Life Mommy Quotes Needed For The Book!

Hey girls!

We're looking for quotes from real moms for the book! What one nugget of truth (spiritual or practical) would you like to share with future mommies-to-be? Post a comment here or visit our Facebook page to post a comment. Please let us know your first name, age and how many children you have. Please also let us know if you will allow us to use the quote in the book.

Thanks for giving us your input. We know each and every one of you has something wise to share!

Love,

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Why THIS Pregnancy Book?

Since Dr. Rupe recently posted about why we were embarking on this journey, I thought I'd share the story I recently recorded in the manuscript of how the idea of this book came to be. . .

{From Chapter 5}

I want to share with you a story from a time in my pregnancy where God pretty much whipped my butt into shape regarding worry. Actually, it’s a funny story, which shows you that God cares enough about our thoughts and our peace of mind to lovingly and laughingly discipline us from time to time.

Keep in mind my first two pregnancies did not make it past 12 weeks. After two miscarriages I was understandably on guard when it came to anything out of the ordinary. I was 19 weeks pregnant and we were getting ready for church one Sunday morning when suddenly I sneezed. This was a big ole sneeze and as I let it out something abnormal happened. I felt a little fluid down below and so I did what any post-miscarriage, 19-week pregnant mom-to-be would do – I referred to my “pregnancy bible.” “If you feel leaking fluid,” the book explained, “you may have broken or punctured your amniotic sac. Call your doctor immediately.” I put the book down and dialed Dr. Rupe’s office. Since it was a Sunday, I received a return phone call from one of Dr. Rupe’s colleagues. I explained what happened and that I wondered if I was leaking amniotic fluid. She obviously didn’t know my history when she candidly replied, “If you are, then there’s nothing we can do to save the baby at this point. But come in to the ER so we can check you out.” You can imagine my tension level while driving 20 minutes to the ER. My husband and I didn’t say one word to each other but we both knew the scenarios running through each of our minds. We arrived at the ER and they completed an ultrasound. To our delight they discovered that everything was fine with our baby and my amniotic sac. In fact, I had merely peed in my pants upon sneezing, an embarrassing side effect for many expectant moms. I’ve never been more excited to have peed in my pants in my life (not that I’ve otherwise done it too often). We laughed the entire way home and I knew the Lord was smiling down on me saying, “Why can’t you just trust me?”

Days later I realized there was a great need in the market for a resource like this. I approached Dr. Rupe and naturally she agreed to join me on this ride. We are so excited to have the opportunity to share truth and peaceful perspective with pregnant women. We pray that many will be blessed by our effort.

Pray for us! We spend most of the day Monday combing through this thing. We have 7 days to wrap it up.

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

But Wait. . .There's More. . .

You probably thought you were done with my roller coaster ride, didn't you?! It's not quite over yet.

After finding out we were definitely miscarrying, I bled for a week and started to begin feeling more like myself. I was looking forward to this ordeal being over when all of a sudden I began feeling the most horrible pain I have ever felt. I went through the weekend thinking my digestive system was out of whack or my body was just working overtime to release this pregnancy. On Monday morning, after passing out twice from the pain or loss of blood or something, we decided to take a visit to the ER.

My faithful friend and doctor met me there on her day off (so sorry Heather). They did an exam and another ultrasound and discovered that I was experiencing an ectopic or tubal pregnancy. Apparently, I had conceived twins. One made it to my uterus but never fully formed. The other implanted in my fallopian tube and began to grow. My tube ruptured and caused all of the pain I had been feeling through the weekend.

I had surgery on Monday afternoon. I felt so at peace knowing I was in Dr. Rupe's capable hands. She did have to remove one of my tubes because the damage was not repairable. It will take about a week to recover from the surgery but I already feel so much better than before.

I am so thankful that God protected me through this experience. This really could have had long term effects on me and my reproductive abilities (as if they weren't damaged enough!). There are moments when I want God to give me a clear answer as to why this was necessary. But I can't make myself crazy wondering why. I just need to trust Him. This will likely prolong the process of our conceiving again. I have a great peace about that as well. He has proven this His timing is perfect so I can't fight that. I must surrender to His sovereignty.

Thanks for joining me on this ride. If nothing else, I hope a glimpse into my experience will show you that life is truly a miracle and that although things don't always go our way, God is loving and faithful and He will carry us through.

Sunday, February 21, 2010

A Surprise Disappointment

This is a post I had hoped and prayed I would not have to write. I suppose since I agreed to walk out this pregnancy journey in front of all of you, I had to be ready for this.

I've longed for years to be one of those girls that was surprised by a pregnancy. I've dreamed of saying, "Oh wow. I'm pregnant. I had no idea." Or, "Oops. I'm pregnant. Wasn't planning that." I figured that would never be my story but I always wondered. Yesterday, I came a tiny bit closer to this reality, although it's not turning out like I had hoped.

As I mentioned a few weeks ago, I was to start taking Provera last week to jump start my cycle. This was our course of action after thinking I had not ovulated last month. After taking the Provera and waiting for my cycle to begin, I was met with nothing more than a little spotting. I called Dr. Rupe to ask about this and she told me to go ahead and start the next round of Clomid as the spotting could be considered a "period." She suggested I take a pregnancy test first just to be certain. I'm sure you know where this is going.

After years of day dreaming about how I would respond to a surprise, positive pregnancy test, I was finally given the opportunity to react. I called out to Dave and showed him the stick which adorned very clear, double, pink lines. I was giddy thinking this was God's way of delighting in me by giving me this silly heart's desire. I was giddy for about five minutes - the time between my first, surprise, positive pregnancy test and when I started bleeding. Twenty four hours later I am still bleeding and as experience would suggest I am likely in the middle of my third miscarriage.

I hope I don't sound faithless to be confessing miscarriage before I even know for sure. I have been wrestling with the Lord today going from hope to anger to sheer disappointment. I know He can do anything and I trust that He will if this baby is His plan. But if you've ever experienced anything like this before, you know then that you have to be prepared for whatever the answer. So I am doing just that. . .spending time talking with God so I can better understand His heart in all this. My simple, human mind cannot comprehend how He would allow us to go through this again. But then, how could He allow the poor nation of Haiti to endure all that they've gone through in the past few months? Who am I to question His sovereignty? More so, who am I to question His goodness?

As I began this day, my heart was filled with questions and some fear. I opened my new, favorite devotional book and read,

"Trust and thankfulness will get you safely through this day. Trust protects you from worrying and obsessing. Thankfulness keeps you from criticizing and complaining, those sister sins that so easily entangle you. Keeping your eyes on Me is the same thing as trusting Me. It is a free choice that you must make thousands of times daily. The more you choose to trust me, the easier it becomes. Thought patterns of trust become etched in your brain. Relegate troubles to the periphery of your mind so that I can be central in your thoughts. Thus you focus on Me, entrusting your concerns into my care." Sarah Young - Jesus Calling

Thank you for your prayers as we await His answer. No matter what the outcome, He is faithful.

With my eyes fixed on Him,

Thursday, February 4, 2010

New Poll: What's Your Biggest Pregnancy Fear?

Let us know so we can address it in the book. We want to help women walk through pregnancy with sure peace.

Monday, January 11, 2010

Hello!

So let me start off by introducing myself a little bit. I’m Dr. Heather Rupe and I’m Jessica’s friend/doctor/bible study member/prayer partner/board game nemesis. I’m part of a busy practice here in the Nashville area where I deliver about 10 babies a month. I have a son who’s 5 (he’s also a genius. . .more on that later) and an amazing new baby who’s 2 months old (also more on the miracle of him later). The week our baby came to us (he was lovingly adopted), was also the week that Jess and I learned that this book was going to become a reality. Yes, its been overwhelming, but in an amazing way. Oh, and most importantly, the reason I can work full time, have 2 kids and write a book in my ‘spare time’ (besides an amazing amount of grace and favor from God) is that my husband is a stay at home dad who is just incredible.

As I read through Jess’ entries there are a few things that I feel need some explaining.

Why is Jessica getting ‘fertility treatments’ after just one month of trying? Is that dangerous? Is he going to end up like Octomom?
Usually, it is recommended that you attempt pregnancy for 6 to 12 months before you start infertility treatments. However, during her previous pregnancy attempts Jess was put through the ringer. We know that she does not ovulate very regularly, if at all. So in her situation, moving directly to clomid was the appropriate choice. Clomid helps you ovulate regularly. It also helps you double your chances of conceiving by forming usually 2 eggs each month. It does come with an increased (about 10%) risk of twins. It does not have a risk of high order multiples (>3), so sorry Jess, you probably won’t get 6 babies and your own reality show. Side effects include mood swings, hot flashes and ovarian cysts.

Is it a good idea to have your close friends as patients?
Probably not. When Jessica became my patient our only relationship was that we were in the same small group at church. Over the last 4 years our relationship has grown and deepened partly due to our doctor patient relationship and partly due to many games of Settlers of Catan. Also, Jessica has been my prayer partner and support through the adoption process. It was with her support and the others in our small group, that I was able to keep standing in faith during our 3 year wait to adopt our son. So, if she hadn’t been my patient for the last 4 years and suddenly wanted to be now, I would probably say that no, we’re too close. But, since she has been all along and I can’t stand the thought of not being able to deliver her next baby. . .I guess were stuck with each other.

I do have lots of people that I know pretty well as my patients. How I approach this is when I close the exam door, they are treated like everyone else. I explain this at the beginning. I do everything by the book, never making assumptions and leave the patient comfortable to always ask any questions. This way nothing is missed. I also take the same approach with my patients who are themselves doctors or nurses.

So here we go. Me with my new baby. . .Jess trying hard to get pregnant. . .Both of us writing this book.

Thanks for coming along for the ride!

Thursday, December 31, 2009

Pregnant?: That Would Be A No

Not that I thought I would start my new cycle on time but I had hopes, what with this being my first month off the pill. You could imagine my curiosity after not even having started today. I told myself I wouldn't rush to take a PG test but I thought of the wine and champagne I'd be missing for no reason on New Year's Eve if I didn't confirm what I already suspected. I was right. No double pink lines for me this month. I'd be lying if I didn't say I was a bit disappointed. I think more than anything the reality of the 'no' brought back scores of memories and emotions that I'd rather care to forget.

What if this never happens? What if it takes forever? Can I please get off this crazy train before it makes me nuts?

Ha! And it's only month one. Truth is as much as I am committed to tap into God's peace, I am human. So I'm going to give myself a break. Of course I realize almost no one gets pregnant the first month they try. But for those of us with infertility it's more than the 'no' that haunts you each month. It's the possibility of 'never'. Dave and I feel strongly that I should begin Clomid (a fertility drug that will help me ovulate) next month. I'll have Dr. Rupe chime soon to share more about that.

Hey, at least I got to toast the new year. We rang in the new year a little while ago eastern standard time. I am excited to turn the page to 2010. I believe that there will be many blessings that come to us this year by God's great grace. I pray the same for you and yours.

Happy New Year!

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Pregnant? : Week 4

Christmas is here. I am reminded of Mary and how she must have felt when the angel appeared and told her she would have a child. Talk about a surprise pregnancy! Her response is what floors me, "Let it be to me according to Your Word."

Today marks the beginning of week 4 of my "pregnancy." I'm right in the middle of what we infertile women like to call the 2 week wait (2WW). I imagine the clever term and it's cute abbreviation was the creation of some poor infertile girl who needed some sort of mark to bind her to other women in her situation. I know it made the 2WW a little easier for me knowing that as I waited, thousands of other women in my shoes waited. . .most of us for months and months on end. Infertile or not, the 2WW is that time between ovulation and when your period would normally arrive. I'm sure any woman hoping to get pregnant - whether it's her 1st or 15th month trying - hates the 2WW. No one likes waiting.

As I mentioned last week, I do not believe I ovulated this month so I'm not counting on seeing those double pink lines this time around. Perhaps it's because this is just the first month or maybe it's because I've done this drill before, but I am still peaceful about it all. After going through countless 2WWs before, I know that as hard as it is to wait, there's nothing else I can do. If I can keep focusing on the truth about His perfect timing, I might make it through this process without going crazy.

Let it be to me according to Your Word God.

Merry Christmas!
Jessica

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Pregnant? : Week 3

Today marks the beginning of week 3 of my "pregnancy" which means I should be ovulating. Problem is. . .I don't think I'm ovulating. I am using those wonderful ovulation predictors (which basically means I have to pee on more sticks and the reward is not as great at finding out you are pregnant!) and those little buggers confuse me more than anything.

I have PCOS. Have I mentioned that before? Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome is the reason I had so much trouble getting pregnant in the first place. I'll spare you all the medical mumbo jumbo and just say that PCOS means I don't ovulate regularly, or likely not at all. Having just come off the pill, I was hopeful I would ovulate since that's what the pill does. I suspect I may ovulate later than normal ("normal" is 14 days before you normally start your period - or right in the middle of a 28 day cycle) so there is still hope this month.

I am actually much more at peace about trying this time around. If there was one thing I learned on my last journey it's that God knows what He's doing. After all the waiting and the miscarriages and the sorrow, His sovereignty ordained one tiny sperm to join one (and likely the only one) good egg to create a life destined to live before there was time. That's what I believe about the Creator of life. He knows and wills and does for His great purpose. So as much as this process sucks, I am much more willing to wait this time knowing that His perfect will created this little girl that I am so crazy in love with. Why shouldn't I trust Him?

I am reading this book by Hannah Whitall Smith that was written in the 1800's. The Christian's Secret to a Happy Life. I started reading it because lately I've noticed there are a lot of miserable Christians walking around this earth. I am intrigued to know what a woman who lived a few hundred years ago has to say about our happiness. Last night the chapter was about trust and the will. Hannah pretty much implores her readers to understand that trust has nothing to do with emotion. We constantly want to feel like we trust Him. Trust rather, is an act of the will and thus we must decide to trust Him. When we do so, our emotions come into alignment with our will and peace and happiness follows. Sounds simple, right? I don't know how simple it is, but it's what I'm going to do. I simply have to or I'll go mad trying and waiting and trying and waiting. . .

This principle is something I need to apply to every area in my life. There will always be something we are waiting on or trusting Him for. We might as well be happy as we do so. He is faithful and despite the waiting and the counting and the 20+ sticks I will pee on, I will yield to His perfect will.

Will you?

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Pregnant? : Week 2

Today begins week 2 of my "pregnancy". Just to remind you, I'm not actually pregnant yet. Remember, pregnancy begins 2 weeks before you actually conceive.

I had surgery last week to repair an umbilibal hernia they found when I was pregnant with Hope. The doctor told me I needed to have it done before I got pregnant again to ensure it didn't get worse. I was so excited to have this procedure as it was the first step towards baby #2. I came through the surgery just fine only to find out it wasn't actually a hernia. Just a silly benign tumor or something like that. So there was really no need to cut me open. Thanks Dr. Hernia. Next time try doing an ultrasound to confirm your diagnosis. Still, I'm glad to be one step closer to getting pregnant. Now if those ovaries of mine would produce some good eggs this month, maybe I will be pregnant in a few weeks.

I am surprisingly peaceful about the journey this time. Of course I hope it won't take as long this time around, but either way I am so much in love with my little girl and my hubby that months of waiting doesn't seem like such a bad thing. More time to soak up life with Hope.

Here's hoping for good eggs,
Jessica

Thursday, December 3, 2009

Pregnant? : Week 1

Yesterday officially marked the beginning of week 1 of my "pregnancy". Did you know that pregnancy actually "begins" at the beginning of your cycle even though you don't conceive until roughly 2 weeks after that? I know, it doesn't make any sense. But that's what Dr. Rupe tells me. Pregnancy is counted in weeks (40 weeks), beginning with the day you start your cycle. Too much information?! I'm sure you don't need to know much more about my menstrual cycle but I'll warn you, if you are along for this ride, it's going to get personal. So back to my cycle. . .

Isn't it funny how you can wake up one day (say, day 1 of your cycle) and feel like you've gained 10 pounds overnight? WTH?! Seems so unfair to have to bear the burden of your period (we like to call it "the dot" in our house) AND bloating. Good thing I have the hope of pregnancy to keep me going.

By the time my next menstrual cycle rolls around again, I'll know if I got pregnant this month. If I don't get "the dot" I'll know I'm 4 weeks pregnant. Make sense?

Don't worry if you're not getting it. The book will explain it much better than I am here. You'll just have to wait for it to come out to understand completely.

Wish me luck this month!
Jessica

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Welcome!

Welcome to The Pregnancy Companion blog. Dr. Heather Rupe and I are so glad you joined us here. We are very excited about the journey we are about to embark on. The Pregnancy Companion has been a dream of ours for a few years now. Every month we get closer and closer to seeing this dream come to fruition.

So what exactly is The Pregnancy Companion? It's a book we've held in our hearts as we've walked together through many trials and tribulations related to beginning and growing our families. You see, Dr. Rupe is not only my OB, she is first and foremost my friend. I had the privilege of being under her care and I now believe every woman should have the benefit of a Christian OB. Of course we realize not all women will have access to a faith-filled obstetrician and thus The Pregnancy Companion dream was birthed.

Actually the idea came about when I was 19 weeks along with my daughter Hope. I sneezed really hard one morning and after consulting a few best-selling pregnancy manuals I thought my amniotic fluid was leaking and it was time to say goodbye to another baby. Alas, I had simply peed in my pants and all was well with our little one. But let's not focus on that, let's focus on the fact that I freaked out and did not stop long enough to catch my breath, pray, or consider that maybe I just peed in my pants and everything would be OK. The Pregnancy Companion will be a faith-filled guide for the journey to motherhood and will consist of expert medical information mixed with practical and devotional thoughts, all written from a Christian perspective. Sound like a good idea? We think so. Can't promise it'll prevent any pregnant woman from peeing in her pants, but we can surely make sure you don't freak out when you do!

Speaking of pregnancy. . .this month I also start a personal journey of trying to get pregnant again. I have looked forward to this month with great anticipation and apprehension. Our first little one, Hope (isn't she beautiful?!) did not come to us easily.


After being diagnosed with PCOS (poly-cystic ovarian syndrome) and with it infertility; after experiencing two miscarriages, getting pregnant is not something I look forward to completely. So I set out on this journey committed to chronicle it all for you here. Dr. Rupe will join us every now and then to give a doctor's perspective on what I am experiencing and hopefully we'll deliver some helpful information for women out there in the midst of their own journey to motherhood.

We appreciate you supporting this effort and we hope you'll share what you experience here with other women in your life.

Believing for the birth of a book and a baby,
Jessica